Staying Sane
Its not lockdown
Its who I am
Who I wannabee
Being Me
Not who others think I am
It’s hard being me
Am I a pretender
Or real
A woman in sheep’s clothes
Or a wolf in mens
Staying sane
Is never easy
When you are trans
Like me
A wannabee
Or a nearly bee
Both and neither
I am me
Me is the kernel
The core of who I am
Full of compassion
Full of giving
Sometimes wounded by life
With scars
But always, always
Full of smiles
The scars run deep
So do the laughter lines
In a face now older
Wiser…who knows?
Wisdom is never a gift
Its experience
About living
All the joys
And all the heartaches
Being Me
Is/was never about sanity
Its about living
Every day to the full
No regrets no anger
Gladness to be me
To live and to be
– Pauline Smith
